Don't you hate it when people ask you for your preference? You think about it sooo hard only to later on find out that your preference didn't really matter. I hate it when that happens. It happened a couple of times already that I sometimes would opt not to choose anymore.

The conversation initially started with how I am doing. The topic later jumped and went on to my thoughts of making the switch. Hmmm...hmmm...hmmm. It took me sometime to respond back.

His dilemma - that there aren’t any opportunities that he could offer that can help make me become part of the "dark side" of the force soon, and that only the "Big Brother" house can offer that. I got disappointed and sad that the only way I could get to the next level super fast is to switch. Wow, so the options are A.) Switch and become a part of the dark side super fast OR B.) Stay and get left behind...maybe wait a year or 2. Grrr... Come on!!! What kind of question is that? Actually, I was hoping to get the default answer – that it all boils down to the "B" need. *Sigh*... I was asked to think it over. Should I even bother? Do I really have to? I am pretty sure someone has already decided my fate.

I'd rather pick C. :) When the right time comes, plan C would not be so much of a big decision point in my career. They have just given me reasons not to feel guilty or regretful about taking the leap. I know it shouldn’t really affect me. It is too early for me to expect something like that. I don’t know... maybe it’s just the thirst for appreciation, a desire to get a validation that I have done something good. Snap out of it, celgee. :)

Disclaimer: Can't understand this post. Don't bother. :) Hehehe. Could be just my imagination.

posted by celgee @ Wednesday, January 23, 2008

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